My Number One Regret

In life we are told to live with no regrets. To live life to the fullest and never look back. For some people their past haunts them. And every minute of everyday that is all they can think of, what they could have done. We all at one time live on the woulda, coulda, shoulda island where all regrets live to haunt us. For me if I could change one thing it would be for my mother to live. I would give anything to go back and hear her voice even if she is yelling at me. To see her smile, blood rushing threw her veins. To have spent more time with her good or bad. If she was still here it would change a lot. I would not be so quiet and would not feel so alone even when surrounded by others. It would also effect my brother. There would never have been longing or darkness in his eyes. My family would not even know the meaning. My mom was very well known and she changed many people for the batter. She was the sun in my eyes, the strongest person I know. She made me and just about anyone she talked to believe that they could do the impossible. She never gave up on anything no matter the challenge it held. My mom fought the hardest battle, that I have seen many lose.  She had fought the battle of Cervical Cancer for years and at one point went into remission, but the world added an evil twist. She was diagnosed again and was put on a trial. Slowly her body gave up and she was unable to fight it off. If I could bring her back pain free I would with out a second thought. To see my brother happy and to feel whole again. To truly smile and laugh, because after a while pain consumes to the point where you give up. So my one regret is I never got that last goodbye. But I will continue to fight and help people as she did, and show everyone how amazing my my mother was by doing what is right.